What to do, when you don't know what to do.

Hello out there in cyberspace!

Hmmmm, where to begin? I am a middle-age woman, wife, mother and Nana. I recently lost my job after nearly 22 years due to "out-sourcing", which is a polite way of saying I was fired, and while on vacation no less! This has been a difficult time for me. First I was in shock, then anger, then crying, depression and wallowing, followed by anger again and now acceptance, albeit reluctantly. I have been offered a position with this new company which has terrible hours, lousy insurance and my pay will be cut in half. After a week of looking at other possible jobs in my field, I have decided to accept this crappy offer, until something new presents itself.

Losing a job is like losing a loved one, which I know something about. My son was killed in a car accident a few years ago and grief is an emotion I know all too well. I keep asking myself, "why me?" However, I am really no different than the other Americans who have been sacked. I had been looking forward to retirement and now my life has been turned upside down and there is a lot of fear and uncertainty about how things will turn out.

What am I to do? Well, it is not as if this was my "dream job" to begin with. It is not like I said when I was a kid, "gee I hope I grow up to be a medical transcriptionist"...LOL I had always wanted to be a writer. However, now I would love to be on the LPGA, but with my golf handicap, that is not really an option. So, I have decided to write a blog about my life and the changes, challenges and tribulations of being middle-aged and trying to figure out just what to do, when I am really not sure what that is.

I would love to hear from all of you who have gone through similar situations and are floundering right now as well.

Keep the faith and I will keep you posted.